Uncovering the Three Beings

During the summer of 2012, I had an experience that changed my life forever. I stayed in the hospital for four months for treatment for major scoliosis (at the time I possessed about a 140 degree curve). During the time I spent there, I had two surgeries. One was minor, in which they bolted four screws into my skull for a traction device. The other very major, called spinal fusion in which they attached two titanium rods to my spine. Under both of which I believe I had two of the most spiritual experiences of my life.

During the first, which only lasted about an hour, I recall being thrown with near lightning speed to an unfamiliar plane of existence. I felt as if I had "broke through to the other side" and traveled to an astral plane relatively high up on the spiritual scale. The plane was built of patterns and grids of a color that near resembled glitter. All my human senses were cut off, but I seemed to still be able to see and hear purely intuitively. On this plane, I encountered three beings. As these beings spoke, I never really heard anything they said, I just simply knew what they were trying to communicate due to feeling their energy. The beings expressed that they had looked down upon human souls from their plane for quite some time, but never had they encountered human soul on their plane before. Being extremely curious, these beings swirled around me as if they were investigating my soul. They then reassured me about many things including that I would be alright through my whole ordeal in the hospital.

After I awoke from this surgery, I felt I was thrown back into my body so harshly, that I desperately needed to hold on to the nurse in fear I would literally fall off the face of the universe and I was talking uncontrollably without thinking. The nurse continued holding my hand as I rambled on about my experience. She asked me if I had seen heaven and, to her disappointment, I told her that heaven didn’t exist, because it was something so much bigger than that. Everything felt so clear and I recall comparing such a feeling to that of being born. A lot of things connected after that. I realized that, as a young child, almost all of my nightmares were about being "investigated" by mysterious beings, which I assume were the same entities.

Aside from this trinity, I also recalled meeting a green being. This green being claimed to have known my mother, so I assumed it had been my deceased grandfather. It wasn't until a little afterwards that my grandmother told me about an experience she had shortly after my grandfather passed on in which she awoke to a near identical green being of light sitting in lotus position in the form of my grandfather.

Even though this seemed like a personal entity, I wondered if there was a bigger meaning. I thought of the heart chakra and how it acts as the balance point for all the chakras and governs our relationships and how we interact with other people. Also, green, the color associated with the heart chakra, symbolizes harmony, health, abundance and nature. It is the combining of yellow (soul) and blue (spirit). Green, nature's color, offers new energy.

Yet after many meditations that I realized this entity would be necessary for my advancement. Acting as pure compassion, this guide would serve as a spiritual umbrella allowing me to venture into the deep corners of the universe, while shielding me from intense polarity. It is said that the brightest light casts the darkest shadow, and the darkest shadow reflects the brightest light. The single thing that seems to neutralize such polarity is compassion. It is the middle path.

During the time between my two surgeries I had one of the most terrible nightmares of my life, which I still remember clearly. Just before waking up I heard a loud marching sound as the beings emerged once more, but they were somehow very different this time. They seemed to be the polar opposite of the beings I remembered. The beings I met previously seemed to represent immense and unconventional love and peace, while the other set represented dark intensity and void, which I believe is often misinterpreted as evil. After I awoke, I still perceived these beings standing before me, but only for a few moments before they disappeared.

A few months later, there were complications with my following surgery, but after one failed attempt and one unexpected sickness, things seemed to fall into place. I awoke that morning with my heart pounding out of my chest. I was given drugs to ease my anxiety, even drugs to make me forget the process of going under, which I still remember quite vividly, and in the end I was given laughing gas, which was when everything faded out.

I traveled again to the same plane where the beings greeted me once more. They seemed familiar with my soul and assured me that the complications occurred because they weren’t quite ready for me. With the knowledge they gained from my previous surgery, they gathered around me and removed my core essence from my soul’s vehicle. They then turned away and huddled together further craft it, shaping it with their light and giving me wisdom and psychic senses that it would have taken me years, even lifetimes to develop on my own. It was somewhat like setting a reset button on me in the sense that it took away all of my spiritual baggage.

After the beings had altered my core essence, they placed it back into my soul’s vehicle. After which the beings communicated to me that, because my energy is now so different, I must travel through the entire process of reincarnation in order to return to my body. I could no longer return the way I came. This part gets a bit fuzzy because I believe I went deeper than my brain still allows me to currently comprehend. I recall exploring the grid of the cosmos and floating in time and space, yet with a mission – I knew I still had to get home.

One of my last stops was to what I can only describe as a quasar (- a point in space in which a black hole swallows a star and lets out a cosmic burp of blasting light). Quasars are usually extremely hectic, and yet somehow it was peaceful as if the point of explosion was frozen in space and time stood still. It glowed with brilliant light more beautiful than I had ever seen. Spirits emerged and welcomed me, and everyone recognized me and communicated that they were surprised that I had been human for so long. They all gathered around and embraced me and I had never felt such an intense sense of belonging. It was then when I realized that that’s what I had meant when I told the nurse there was no heaven, that it wasn’t that simple. It’s because everyone’s “heaven” is different. When you return to “heaven”, you’re returning to the place where your soul originated, where time itself stands still.

I’m told roughly eight hours later, I woke up. I don’t remember this, nor do I remember anything else until three days later. I almost feel its better that way, although I’m told that, when I wasn’t screaming pain, I was babbling about the beings. Recovering was one of the most difficult things I’ve ever had to do. While in constant pain I had to relearn many of the basic things no one ever gives much thought to. Luckily I made a speedy recovery and was sent home a week later.

It wasn't until I reached a higher state of consciousness during meditation, which occurred a few months after returning home from the hospital, that I realized that all these things meant something and that there were certain profound secrets of the universe of which I felt I needed to uncover. During this experience, I also learned why certain souls are placed in certain bodies and how spiritual experiences which the individual will experience in life must match up to the spiritual needs of the soul. After that it seemed like after every one of my mediations, I’d uncover more about all of my experiences, as if I was slowing prying information from my subconscious.

During another one of my mediations I recalled meeting these beings and writing on a piece of paper “The beings called to me and I understood”, but after I regained normal consciousness, I couldn't for the life of me remember what these beings called out to me for or what I "understood".

Even my dreams were a constant psychedelic vision. Once the continuation of colors and patterns faded, I would continuously have dreams of being in a very tall tower. This tower represented all that existed and each door in this tower represented a different dimension or universe. It seemed to represent a tower of the living mind built on the foundation of the Akashic Records. The tower had somewhat of a “help desk” in the center, which is where the three beings always resided. However every time they were revealed, I would wake up.

After that I began doing as much research as possible about these three beings. Some of the things that came to mind before research were the trinities of various religions which I already knew about - The father, son, and holy ghost of Christianity, The maiden, mother, and crone of Paganism which represents the three stages of the Goddess, Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva of Hinduism which represents the creator, the preserver, and destroyer of the universe, and of course there is always the past, present, and future as well as the physical, mental, spiritual self, and the individual, cosmic, and transcendent self. But I knew these three beings meant more than all of that. They were somehow all of them and none of them.

My favorite tarot card also came to mind - the High Priestess. I had read about how she sat between two pillars who were in plain sight, but the third pillar was slightly covered temporarily by a curtain as sort of a test to the seeker of enlightenment (- the Magican). I thought of how these three pillars could possibly represent the three beings.

So I began doing research on various people who endured a near death experience and I was astonished at just how many people mentioned meeting these three beings. I was even more astonished when I came across this picture that a man had posted while describing his near death experiences - an exact match of the three beings of dark intensity that appeared to me.

I found that a woman recalled meeting these beings during her near death experiences in the late 80’s and, according to her, they predicted to her the war and the dwindling state of the economy. But they told her that an era of peace would arise on earth following these two events.

A young boy who had a near death experience recalled back on it by saying “I had the feeling that if I went with them (three beings) there would be no coming back ….”

A woman who took part in a past life regression reported seeing three beings she had been with just before she was born. She stated that “Standing in that place with the three beings, I was surrounded by spectacular vistas. If I had turned around, I would have seen the planet Earth beside and below us. All of the vistas seemed unimportant. The three beings huddled about me, giving me both information and instructions. That was the important part. After that, they sent me here, — to this life.”

I also found that a group of spirit mediums, skilled in performing séances and contacting the diseased, worked with a group of three beings which they referred to as “the spirit team”. They claimed that all the advancements they made in their field were only made possible through the help of this “spirit team” as they wanted them to succeed.

So I then reached the conclusion that perhaps these “three beings” were some kind of the gate-keepers of the other side, but if this were true, why has so little been written about them? Finding any information about them over the internet was like a wild goose chase. But perhaps that’s because the most valuable truths are the ones that are the hardest to find.

I continued researching and found that Alice A. Bailey, an important figure of Theosophy who is said to help St. Germain bring about the Age of Aquarius in the Americas, and two different English Masters. Her and few others  formed a subsidiary group in called Triangles, in which people were encouraged to form 3 person triangle groups for meditation, the purpose as being to “help to illuminate world thought … through which the new incoming Aquarian energies can function, the new ideas spread.".  Bailey is also said to have identified the three Lords of Liberation. According Bailey, the three Lords of Liberation formulated the slogan Liberty, Equality, Fraternity. Finally, Bailey also identified the three Lords of Karma. These three beings are said to live in Shamballah and help Sanat Kumara decide where and when souls are going to incarnate in their next life.

The concept of these three beings being "Lords of Karma" struck me with a profound sense of significance. In Paganism, they make clear that everything you send out into the universe, especially with your magickal practice, come back to you times three. They call it the Law of Three. I thought that perhaps each degree of your karma relating to this law could possibly be given to you by each of the three beings. It's also a common concept of many eastern philosophies that your next life is determined by your karma... So it's only logical to conclude that these "Lords of Karma" would be the beings to lead you to your next life.

I did some looking into who Sanat Kumara was and found that Helena Blavatsky, another important figure in Theosophy, mentioned him briefly and claimed he belonged to a group of beings called the “Lords of the Flame”, whom Christian tradition have misunderstood as Lucifer and the fallen angels. The word lucifer actually means “light bringer” and, as I recall holds some significance with the planet Venus. Sanat Kumara is regarded as the great guru, savior of Earth as it is said that he sacrificed himself to become the personality vehicle for the ensuing deity of our planet 18.5 million years ago. Believers in him see him are in many of the major religions, as Skanda/Kartikkeya in Hinduism, Brahma-Sanam Kumar in Buddhism, the Ancient of Days in Judeo-Christian traditions identify him as Ahura Mazda in Zoroastrianism. It is also considered that Sanat Kumara is Al Khdir, or green man (something I found quite interesting) known to Sufi Muslims (according to Dakshinamurti).

I decided to do some investigating in the number three itself. Through my vague awareness of occultism, I remembered that the 33rd degree was the highest degree of freemasonry, but, in addition to that, I found that the number '333' had some significance in occultism as well. It is said that occultists often use the triple numbers 333 as a secret number representing 666. But we have heard that the real reason is that this number, 333, is an occult symbol for Choronzon, the dreaded spirit of chaos. This entity also is known as the spirit of dissolution and Lord of Hallucinations. It was said that everyone who came in contact with Choronzon falls into ruin. The demon is said to create confusion of thought and turn people insane. In the 20th century he became an important element within the mystical system of Thelema, founded by Aleister Crowley, where he is the Dweller in the Abyss believed to be the last great obstacle between the adept and enlightenment. Thelemites believe that if he is met with proper preparation, then his function is to destroy the ego, which allows the adept to move beyond the Abyss of occult cosmology.

There's also the number three manifested in geometry - the triangle. "… Triangles were conceived by the ancients to explain the secret order of the cosmos”. It's said that pagans believed that triangles symbolically revealed that three spirits were brought down into the geographical or the worldly realm.  For example, Baal-Shalisha, a pagan god of three, who is mentioned in the Bible. There's also the six-pointed star, a symbol commonly used by the Jewish faith, a triangle facing upward upon a triangle facing downward... Using the idea of the triangle paired with the hermetic axiom "as above, so below". I believe this symbol can be used to adequately represent the union of three light beings and the three dark beings, thus describing the absolute oneness of all that exists. I have even started using this symbol in place of the pentagram in the center of my altar.

I also came across a Norse symbol called a Valknut which involved three intertwined upward facing triangles. The symbol can be seen as a representation of Odin and the afterlife. While the exact meaning of Valknut is unsure, however it is believed and indicated to symbolise the connectedness of the nine worlds represented in the vikings world. Another belief for the Valknut symbol meaning was as a aid for reincarnation, cyclical relationships and in talismans to ward against evil. It was a common tradition to carve this symbol into caskets and tombstones.

I also found it interesting that there are three different type of Norse Gods. The Aesir - the gods of the tribe or clan, representing kingship, order, craft, etc., the Vanir - gods of the fertility of the earth and forces of nature, and the Jotnar - giant-gods who are in a constant state of war with the Aesir, representing chaos and destruction.

But in the end, I knew the entirety of these clues hinted to something bigger than I could imagine. I knew there are many more truths yet to uncover on the matter. I had wondered if perhaps much of my coincidental research wasn’t related to my experience at all or that all of this was simply a product anesthesia, pure insanity, or imagination. I wondered why so little had been written about these, and most importantly, I wondered why they had chosen me. Ultimately, I knew I’d be able to piece it all together eventually and it was then that I realized that to do so, I must tell my story as well as integrate it into my practice.